Next month, April 16th to be exact, was supposed to be my due date from my last pregnancy. I suffered my third miscarriage September of last year. I was about 11 weeks pregnant. As April approaches I find myself thinking a lot about that child and the grief that accompanied that loss. With my two previous miscarriages I was pregnant with one of the boys when the due dates came around so this time it is a little different and a little harder. Even though this has been a hard time for me, God has proven Himself so faithful. A verse the Lord keeps bringing to my mind is Jeremiah 29:11- 13. "For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you a HOPE and a future. When you call out to me and come to me in prayer, I will hear your prayers. When you seek me in prayer and worship, you will find me available to you if you seek me with all your heart and soul!" I remember memorizing this verse in the 2nd grade with my teacher Mrs. Hargett. Little did I realize then how much this verse would comfort my heart 20 something years later. My favorite part of the verse is " I have plans to give you a HOPE and a future!" I am claiming this promise today! I believe this with all my heart! I know God has something great in store for me and my family. Even though I am grieving our loss I am filled with such HOPE!
As we walk through this adoption process and all the ups and downs we have faced, I am filled with excitement and hope, anticipating what the Lord has planned for us. I am praying God's perfect will be revealed. I will continue to walk day by day seeking His face and trusting in His promises. He has proven Himself to me time and time again that HE TRULY IS FAITHFUL!!!!!!
The name of my blog is, of course, Sophie's hope. Hope will be the middle name of our daughter (Sophia Hope) because Hope is my grandmothers middle name.
It seems like hope has been a recurring theme in my life over the past few weeks. I need to remember that my true HOPE only comes from seeking the Lord. I need to be reminded who it is that is in ultimate control of my life. It is my risen Savior. He is my true LIVING HOPE!!!!